♥ : breakdown.helpless.
ytd.080808
wat a nice date n it shld be a nice day.
but not to me.
i breakdown.
i controlled n forced myself not to.
but when i went to toilet alone to chill down, the cruel tear rolled down my cheek.
it stopped after awhile n i'm gladed tt it stopped.
cuz i dun wanna let the whole world noe tt i've cried.
especially my grp members.
no matter how bad i felt i still hav to move on cuz they r waiting fr me to guide them.
but the thing is when i cant even guide myself how am i going to guide them???
i'm really stressed.
i gt nobody to rely on to.
not even my close frens.
i'm feeling extrememly helpless here.
n nobaody is willing to help me.
not even my frens too.
so hu can i expect to seek help from?
they still threat me like enemy even when i reached my limit to crying.
i understand, my fren.
we r in the diff grp how can ur possibly betray ur grp rite?
i nv blame ur fr not helping me.
i jux felt very helpless n dissappointed wif myself.
when i felt like crying, the first person i tot of is u.
i hope tt u can take a good look of me.
if i'm still feeling alright or not.
n i realised tt u really r.
cuz i caught a few glimsp of u looking at me.
i really nd tt at tt moment, thx my dear.
u make me feel tt there is still someone out there tt care abt me.
care about my feeling, my mood.
n those concerning words.
"aeh giv me a smile leh..."
n u noe wat? u r the oni one hu said tt to me.
thx lotz, n i really love u man.
cuz my frens dun even say tt to me.
but was tt jux a fren to fren concern?
i guess my close frens dun even realised tt i nd someone beside me badly.
when i look at ur back, i really feel like hugging u thightly.
i dunno if i've fell in love wif u.
but i wanted to tell u tt actually i've fell on u fr a long long time.
i dun wanna let u noe cuz i tot u hav gf oready.
now tt i noe u r single, i hope tt u will realise my existence.
i really nd a hug badly, especially urs. =)
looking frward to mon to see u.
missing ur cheerfulness n ur conv wif me.
stay focus@3:29 AM
